Hello, how are you?
Me? I’m fabulous. Lately, I say that anytime someone asks me, and every day it’s a little more true. I am fabulous. Life is great. My kids are great. I don’t have any dire concerns right now and I’m happy. I totally mean it. Wow. I mean it. I’m fucking awesome.
I need to work better at being an adult. It’s almost impossible for me to multitask. I get all wrapped up in the next big thing in my life, and devote the majority of my time to it and everything else falls by the way side. When I find a new passion, it’s all consuming for a few weeks and then I’m tired of it, and ready to move on to the next big thing. I swear, I’m like a child. Attention deficit disorder when it comes to extracurricular activities, or anything really, that can be set aside or forgotten easily.
When I bought my camera, and my Flickr pro account, and Lightroom 2, I was gonna do the damn thing. I was going to really learn what the fuck I was doing and do it big. That lasted all of two months. I recently went about 3 weeks without picking up my camera.
Before that it was cooking. But I do that a lot. I cook a lot, then my kids live out of a McDonald’s bag. Then I cook again. Right now – it’s all McDonald’s. But they get apples with their cheeseburgers so shut the fuck up.
When I stopped drinking soda, I decided to do Atkins and work out too. Might as well get it all started, eh? I made Mishi my Atkins coach and Shannon my self-improvement partner and what happened? Well – I’ve still stayed away from soda, save a few diet here and there, but the other stuff? Yeaahhhhh…no. Fuck that shit.
Recently, I lost my will to blog. There were quite a few reasons for that. I’m tired of the internet, in general. I’ve got other things and people taking up my time. I found a new ‘blog’ site that I adore and I’ve taken three of my favorite people in the world along with me, so it’s where I spend most of my time. Don’t ask me where, I won’t tell you.
I’ve been looking forward to BlogHer ’09 since BlogHer ’08. Last week I almost quit that completely. The desire to attend just hasn’t been there for a while, to deal with the bullshit and look in the faces of all these people that I view to be snakes and whores and be cordial, because you know – that’s what adults do. But, one of my very favorite companies is giving me free shit to wear, and I’ve already paid my deposit on the $1000/10 hour tattoo I’m getting while I’m there. And I want to see my friends, and I’ve never been to Chicago. I know I’ll fun, like I did last year, if I just stop being a sourpuss. Plus, my plane ticket is non-refundable, dude.
So, now, what do I do? Not a damn thing, I guess. I’ll sit here and twiddle my thumbs and abandon everything I once enjoyed, waiting for the new great love in my life, whatever that will be. I start classes next week, so I’m sure that will take up most of my time anyway.
No. That’s not very adult-ish. I’m a grown up. I have to stick with things. I wouldn’t let Bella start Ballet and decide after a few classes that Karate was more fun and switch. Dedication is important. Just because something bothers you, or you’ve lost that inital fire for it doesn’t mean you should just give up.
So, I’ll make an effort to take more photos.
I’ll start eating healthier again, and moving my ass (a little).
I’ll blog more. It may be about bullshit, dumb little entries like this one, but whatever. It’s my blog and I can make it as boring as I want. Comments are closed, so it’s not like you can call me on it anyway. Haha! So BlogHer emailed me today and let me know that I cannot have closed comments on my blog and still be a part of their network. So they’re open again.
And back to you. I really hope you’re well. You can email me anytime, you know that? I check that obsessively. (maria0305@gmail.com)
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Where is your new favorite blog place? Oooh! and what tattoo are you getting?
kaila´s last blog post..His first attempt at a lie….sort of
LEAVING A COMMENT JUST BECAUSE I CAN!
*sticks out tongue and giggles*
(check yr email in a bit….)
March 3, 2009 at 3:47 pm
You’d better not be pulling out of BlogHer! I can’t wait for your tattoo!
I feel you though, with my divorce and move, I’ve barely blogged twice in the last two weeks. So much for my 365 streak. Meh!
Fear and Parenting in Las Vegas´s last blog post..Focusing on the forward.
WTF? You can’t have closed comments?
And you told me I was one of your favouritist people on earth and I don’t see me getting no invite to your club.
Meh.
Glad you are back writing. I know I go through a funk sometimes and just can’t manage to write. Those days include pics or recipes. Hang in there.
Coco
I’m leaving a comment, but I’m not saying anything. ;)
Prefers Her Fantasy Life´s last blog post..Thank You Mr. Liberal Unitarian English Teacher of My Tenth Grader
I’m twice your age and I still can’t focus on more than one thing at a time. While I’m in my writing class, my kids suffer, my husband suffers, and my blog – well, you check, my posting is, shall we say, INFREQUENT? I just cannot handle it all. Does that mean I haven’t grown up yet? “F.U.” (Is that proof? Depressing, huh?)
merlotmom´s last blog post..Is Everybody On A Special Diet?
There’s something about that other place that seems a lot happier than here. Do what feels right sugar.
I don’t care what you post about, as long as you keep it up.
Momo Fali´s last blog post..Tatiana
I have zero focus. Seriously. I should have been in the shower and moving for the day two hours ago. My head is reeling with stuff to do, but the sun’s shining, I’m tired, and it’s warm sitting here. Here is ok for now.
*hitting submit* and running away.
(I would miss you if you weren’t here.)
What’s this focusing and being an adult thing you speak of? Anyhow, I’m super glad that you are going to Chicago because I’m dreaming of the next time I hear you yell my name – because when you did that after the Macy’s party right in front of the St. Francis while I was stealing a smoke, it really REALLY made me motherfuckin’ happy.
I know a majority of those feelings all too well.
do what you do best and fuck the rest lol
…yes I need to lay off the caffeine ha!
March 4, 2009 at 7:44 pm
So, since everything’s a combo word now (see Brangelina and Beniffer(s)), you might as well choose FEH. It’s my standard response, lately.
Zoeyjane´s last blog post..On being Wordless on Wednesday
March 4, 2009 at 11:01 pm
Cycles of life and of internets. All comes back around.
Angie [A Whole Lot of Nothing]´s last blog post..Wordless 3.4.9: All About Nature
I’ve been trying to quit smoking…a big Meh.
I’ve been trying to lose weight…another Meh.
I’ve been trying to be more patient with people…you got it, Meh.
Looking forward to meeting you at BlogHer, though I don’t really know why I’m going other than it’s practically in my backyard. Meh.
Employee No. 3699´s last blog post..Valentine Recap…
First time visitor here and I really liked your writing. I think you should keep it up so the rest of us can laugh.
People with a good sense of humor are so much better than those ‘focused types’.
Amo´s last blog post..…and leave the key under the mat too.
I’m glad you’re fabulous (not that I didn’t think so already). But I’m also glad you opened up comments so I could tell you that.
Really looking forward to exchanging more than two words with you in Chicago!
mothergoosemouse´s last blog post..Telling stories
Mkay, and why wouldn’t they let you keep your comments closed? Damn, they are hard core, lol.
Anyhoo… just know that you’re not alone.
*rings the doorbell and runs away, laughing hysterically*
you didn’t know it was me, did you??
the planet of janet´s last blog post..Weekly Winners: March 1-7
What’s this about not being able to close comments if your blog’s part of BlogHer? I’ve never heard of that. (I’m also not part of the BlogHer network, partly because every time I’ve gone to apply they’ve been “currently closed to new applications.” Still, I’d like to know the details.)
Pork with Bones´s last blog post..A Righteous Anger
March 8, 2009 at 5:08 pm
I’m glad you’re back, even if you sorta are, but sorta not really. It’s totally cyclical, this internets, blogging thingy…I’ve been meh, feh (ZJ, good one) and all that stuff lately too.
But I’m so happy that you’re going to Chicago because the rest of my body is coming this time, not just my head, and I’d like to give you a nice big hug. If you’ll let me.
I love you. I’m excited to have you come to visit me. I know you SAY you’re coming for Blogher but I KNOW it’s for me. Right? Maria, right???!!!
Hellllllooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
Captain Steve´s last blog post..Damn Circus Midgets
I am glad to hear that you are going to BlogHer because I really want to meet you. All this blog reading and chatting is cool but I want the real thing! See you soon.
Renee aka Mekhismom´s last blog post..Great News!
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